Saturday, April 30, 2016

Making Choices !!!

I have traveled a thousand miles just to find myself yet another domain of uncertainty and fear, hopes and prospects. As I stood on the shore the ocean waves lapping my feet solicitously, tempting me to venture ahead. Although tempted the unknown world of wilderness was equally intimidating and foreboding. The feeling of curiosity was moistened by the dews of doubts and anxieties.

The ocean looked beautiful which rather aggravated my dilemma. I've come a long way in the pursuit of an eternal bliss. But, as I began to contemplate upon the journey ahead, my heart was filled with mixed emotions as to what would unfold. The forbidding feeling of premonition and apprehension was constantly accompanied by the flickering hope of glory and success.

I was a happy man but had always felt something amiss. I wanted to travel, see the world for myself. I've crossed hills, mountains, brooks, and rivers.  I've seen some of the most wonderful miracles that the nature had to offer. I've felt the tender snowflakes on my face, the brooks as it began to canter over my feet, the fury of the river as it began to scoff the gorge. I felt I'd seen enough, but alas!

Now, as I stood on the shore, I was yet again faced with a déjà Vu situation. The vast ocean ahead of me was enchantingly mysterious but the tender softness of the shore was equally comforting. Just few days earlier, I felt I've seen enough, but now the vast ocean of mystery clouted my very purpose. I was where I'd started and it felt like I've seen nothing till now.

The ocean which lay ahead pledged a domain of prospects yet nothing were certain and its ramifications obvious and palpable. I felt like the fox in the fable, who couldn't reach out for the grapes, envisaging it to be sour. I had to decide, either to return home being content with what I've seen or venture further into the unknown domain of wilderness in search of eternal bliss and satisfaction.

Choices, I had to make with neither the will nor the heart. But, I finally managed to persuade myself to return home for good. However, as I reminiscent that day on the shore I ruefully wonder whether I'd made the right decision or not.

As I delve into my past, I did come across such situations where I'd to make a choice. Some choices which I deeply deplore, but all these choices make me who I am today. Some do lament their fate which they feel is indelible, however it's all about making the choices which ultimately decides our destiny...

                          I shall be telling this with a sigh
                         Somewhere ages and ages hence:
                         Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
                         I took the one less traveled by,
                        And that has made all the difference..."      

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